I asked a small group of friends to hang out in the town and it wasn't about my birthday really, it was more about me trying to surround myself with my people...my support network. I didn't want presents or a party. I just wanted their company. I thought I deserved that much because I think that some people have guilt around their birthday, at least I do. But we shouldn't...We think we don't deserve a "happy birthday".
Take baby steps to enjoy yourself on special days. Just try and fill your "happy birthday" with activities and things that make you HAPPY!
I painted my nails hot pink, ate yummy food and just enjoyed the day. I feel good about it. I look forward to next year :0)